An entrance in the dead of night
Loneliness that came back to me suddenly
The gathering place of tears I couldn't shed extends down deep
With a cup for holding sadness, I scooped some up
And gazed at it quietly
Water tank, world of depths
It's only me and myself here
I try screaming to my heart's content
My voice echoes louder than usual
No one will be able to hear it
The only one who can hear it is me
(Tomorrow is far, far away)
(And I've been chased out of yesterday)
(In the space in between, I hug my knees)
Swallowed by the blue
(Back, front, to the back again)
(Wobble, wobble, my thoughts waver)
(I can't arrive at any destination)
Just like this, I want to keep swimming
I can't sleep, it won't end
As if they were today scattered about,
Floating, sinking,
The letters clamor around
The words that had been locked up
The me that encircled myself
Turn, turning round and round
It continues endlessly
This day felt like a lifetime
Completely exhausted, having reached my limit
I craved the blank space on my notebook
Since my head was already too full
It's so frustrating that my hand can't keep up
Hurry, I want to write my heart down as quick as I can
I want to tell the truth, so I refine it, water vibrates
Trace me, spell me out
(No matter where I head, I go round and round
No matter which I choose, I go round and round
The words that had been locked up
The me that encircled myself, turn, turning round and round)
The days flew by on fast forward
I just immersed myself in them so I wouldn't get thrown off
The things I saw there
The sounds I heard, the colors of the sky
I still need more time to understand it all
Who was right and who was wrong?
I can't separate the two
I want to be together, is what I thought
I wanted to be together with all that was there
(On this road where advancing leads back to the start)
(The answer that I should've found by now)
(It won't come to light for me today)
Starting over from a blank paper
(Back, front, to the back again)
(Flap, flap, flipping over)
(Hey, which way is it now)
What was left in the end
Without a gap, without a crack
The time lined up into years
The screams that I had buried for so long
Come chasing after me
While holding on desperately
To the words that I made into my life ring
I turn, turning round and round
Don't let go of me
Swallowed by the blue, just like this
Bottomless, endless
Depths, I rolled down into
And in the spaces between waves of memories, I caught glimpses
Of words softly assembled together
With these hands, I linked them to each other
Turn, turning round and round
Catch me in your arms
Within the silence created from covering my ears
Only the sound of my heart echoed clearly
Rhythm, bounding, oscillating waves
The gazes and voices that surround me
Heat seeps back into my cold body
I know
Where I should go
I know
The feelings I want to carry
(No matter where I head, I go round and round
No matter which I choose, I go round and round
The words that had been locked up
The me that encircled myself, turn, turning round and round)
The words that were born today
I have to go deliver them
I wished for tomorrow
Translated by Bananapepper